Willing

  

Adjective.

Definition: cheerfully consenting; inclined or ready.

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Making resolutions for myself to 

get more organized,

work out at the YMCA 5 times a week, 

attempt to spend more wisely, 

treat my family with more kindness,

craft every craft that catches my fancy on Pinterest,

volunteer more,

sew more,

recycle everything,

host more baby showers or Bible studies,

pay more attention to my neighbors in the cul-de-sac,

etc...

etc...

etc...

only makes me tired.

Then, I don't want to do any of it.

I get tired out, bummed out, stressed out.

Then, I want a TIME OUT.

Then, I ask myself, "is this what homemaking is really all about?"

What if, instead of ME telling myself what I am going to do,

what if, instead of being frustrated by what I think I MUST do,

what if, instead of feeling inconvenienced by what I think are "interruptions",

what if, instead of experiencing exhaustion from my own deadlines,

what if, instead of existing to finish my TO DO list,

I were simply willing.

Willing to want to.

Cheerfully ready.

Inclined when time gives me the opportunity.

Freely consenting to be available.

As I make my home, what if I saw my life as an opportunity?

Not complicated "Leslie willing", but rather simply "God willing".